BLIND This place inside my mind A place I like to hide You don't know the chances What if I should die? A place inside my brain Another kind of pain You don't know the chances I'm so blind Blind Blind Another means I find To escape the pain inside You don't know the chances What if I should die A place inside my brain Another kind of pain You don't know the chances I'm so blind Blind Blind Demon... give in inside... to Hint of a life that seems to be A lost reality that I can never find No way to reach my inner self I stay this low, how deep can I go In the ground that I lay If I don't find a way to Sift through the grey that cloud my mind This time I'm not just sure it's between lines I can see I can see I'm going blind I'm blind ======= BALL TONGUE There you are alone With no hope of ever having Something to be proud of Something earned without begging Yes I know you're a person A person close to me Who do you think you are ...for me Ball Tongue... Ball Tongue... Ball Tongue... Ball Tongue Look what they've done to me Why are you at home Buried in your self-pity Why do you insist on Living the life... out of me Yes I know you're the person The person that took time with me Does that give you the right to extract your life from those around me? You were my pride Where does a friendship end? I'm not gonna give in How can you ball tongue doubt me but not again ======= NEED TO I, I am confused fighting myself Wanting to give in; Needing your help Skin cold with fear, feel it when we touch Outside don't know you, but inside I'm fine Can you see it in me, skin color from touch Each day confronted with what I have done You pull me closer; I push you away You tell me it's okay; I can't help but feel the pain I hate you- why are you taken I loved you- I feel so helpless Why's it you- Ripping my insides each time you Why do I cry Why do I really need to Why Why, fuck you bitch Need to need to need to need to Fu-ck fu-ck fu-ck fu-ck fu-ck ======= CLOWN "Within... my body!" "Four I said, you faggot piece of shit on the drums." "Four? Four!" "Hey, what are you talkin about Ross?" "The toms-toms go.." "So you're saying there's no clicks?" "Just fucking do it, dammit!" "I'd get twist, I wish we could put twist on the fucking tape." "Wanna hear it?" "Fuck you! Fuck you!" "Okay." "You piece of shit." Anger inside Was within my body Why you hate me What have I done You tried to hit me Dream to me again if you like Throw your hate at me with all your might Hit me cause I'm strange hate me Tell me I'm a pussy and you're harder than me What's with you boy, think hard Tied to body too I know you are Scared to be honest be yourself A cowardly man I don't... well Trying to be what's not within me Look into my eyes I am free, you're just a wannabe To come out Hit me clown because I'm not from your town no Hit me clown Clown you ain't SHIT turn around can't you face me Just a fucking little just a fucking little ======= DIVINE I hide only to defy you Take away the only life inside you I'll say your face to everyone Inside I've just begun You think I'm out to scare you I'm only out to prepare you For when you stop and turn around Your body's going down You're gonna waste your time Your life will soon be mine You're definitely one of a kind Your suffering 'cause of me is divine Tell me why you never liked me Tell me once that you'd fight me Pull back and wait for the perfect time To take what's rightfully MINE You think you don't but defy me You said you don't but defy me You wage your dumb on anyone Oh well Well fuck you I'm fed up with you I'm not as good as you fuck you I'm better than you Did you really think you'd beat me at my own game You tried to say what you got Red ripping out your brain ======= FAGET Here I am different in this normal world Why did you tease me make me feel upset Fucking stereotypes feeding their heads I am ugly, please just go away I can see inside you fine This blessing in disguise Why do you treat me this way Make the hate stay As I walk I can never seem to escape All the laughing, all the pain If you were me, what would you do? Nothing prob'ly, you'd just throw me away Faggot Faggot Faggot Here I am different in this normal world Why did you tease me make me feel upset Fucking stereotypes feeding their heads I am ugly, please just go away Faggot Pussy I'm just a pretty boy, whatever you call it You wouldn't know a real man if you saw it It keeps going on day after day some You FAKE and you... don't want none I'm sick and tired of people treating me this way every day Who gives a fuck, right? Now I've got something to say To all the people that think that I'm STRANGE That I should be outta here locked up in a CAGE You don't know what the hell is up now anyway You've got this pretty boy feeling like I'm enslaved To a world that never 'preciated SHIT you can suck my dick and fuckin' like it I'm just a pretty boy; I'm not 'sposed to fuck a girl I'm just a pretty boy living in this fucked up world All my life, who am I? I'm just a faggot I'm not a faggot (what am I?) You motherfucking queers ======= SHOOTS AND LADDERS Ring around the rosy, pocket full of posies Ashes, ashes we all fall down Ring around the rosy, pocket full of posies Ashes, ashes, we all fall down Nursery rhymes are said Verses in my head Into my childhood they're spoon-fed Hidden violence revealed Darkness that seems real Look At The Pages That Caused All This Evil One two, buckle my shoe, three four, shut the door Five six, pick up sticks, seven eight, lay 'em straight London bridge is falling down, falling down, falling down London bridge is falling down, my fair lady Knick knack paddy whack give a dog a bone This old man came rolling home Knick knack paddy whack give a dog a bone This old man came (rolling home) knick knack paddy whack give a dog a bone this old man came rolling home Mary had a little lamb whose fleece was white as Mary had a little lamb whose fleece was white as snow (Baa baa black sheep......) Mary had a little lamb whose fleece was white as snow (Yes sir, yes sir,........) Ring around the rosy, pocket full of posies Ashes, ashes we all fall down Ring around the rosy, pocket full of posies Ashes, ashes, we all fall down knick knack paddy whack give a dog a bone ======= PREDICTABLE Go I can in every way, escape the pain I feel inside It comes with me, evil thoughts just creepin' through my mind Who are you to say, that I can't speak what's on my mind You run away, it's so predictable I can in every way, feel the... that tingle up inside Too blind to see, they've been missing sorrow all their lives You run away, to the cover of their pointless lies You ask me, it's so predictable Well I'm gonna try Or I'm gonna die I'm gonna try Another day, silence overwhelms my mind Who's to say, if I have the time or why Should I pray, for all the hate to go away Another day, I can never break free You wait for me, I call out to you Another day, I'll live forever Should I? Fuck I'm gonna try Should I? ======= FAKE I can't stand the sight of you I can't stand what you put me through Your life's a lie that you hide Isn't that too being you inside I can't stand oh the thought of you I can't stand all the things you do What do you try to justify You were just too scared to be you inside LET it all go Look at you, all I see is a man too afraid to really be I can't stand what you put me through I can't stand even the thought of you Your secret lies that you hide Isn't that too being you inside? You try so hard to be wanted False emotions tells you fronted I think being a person relies on one thing Be yourself, let you come through You're too fake to really be ======= LIES I like to search inside for the things that you all hide What's the problem? Can't you seem to Search through those problems that haunt and taunt you I smile while you're afraid You're on while your soul pays Do you ever stand outside your fears Thinkin' about your life, thinkin' about your inner fears Do you ever stand up outside your fears Thinkin' about your life, thinkin' about your inner fear I like to search inside for the things that you all hide What's the problem? Can't you seem to Open your body and let me touch you I want you to see lies without disguise They're all the things that hurt you, they're all these useless lies I want you to feel, the you wrung up inside I said I took you in, I'll throw you out instead I try, you win, my life Is ripping your heart out and destroying my pain ====== HELMET IN THE BUSH "Hello? Es tacaco? Eres caco? Well, you know, you fuckin' call me tacaco? Okay?" I keep asking, what you're like It is disturbing, this isn't mine Days keep passing, a much at a time I don't feel right, please god let me sleep tonight Everyday confronted, circumvents giving in I just wonder why Want to give it up, but I can't escape I keep asking, will you can please try? It is haunting, this takes your mind Days keep passing, line after line I don't feel right, please god don't let me die tonight Die tonight, die tonight, die tonight Please god, please god Please god help me Please god free me Please god help me from my painful situation Please god help me Please god free me Please god save me from my painful situation Want to give it up but I know I can't escape Please god don't let me give in tonight please god oh Please god don't let me give in tonight please god oh Please god don't let me give in tonight don't let me die Please god don't let me give in tonight Don't let me die ======= DADDY Mother, please forgive me. I just had to get out all my pain and suffering. Now that I'm all done, remember I will always love you. I'm your son. Little child, looking so pretty Come out and play, I'll be your daddy Innocent child, looking so sweet Rape in mind, and then your flesh I'll eat you raped I feel dirty it hurt as a child tied down that's a good boy and fucked your own child I screamed no one hears me it hurt I'm not a liar my god saw you watching mommy why your own child Little child, looking so pretty Come out and play, I'll be your daddy It's all right You raped I feel dirty it hurt as a child Tied down that's a good boy and fucked your own child I rape no one hears me it hurt as a child Tied down, no one hid me and... your own child I sit no one hears me it hurt as a child Tied down that's a good boy and fucked your own child I speak no one hears me it hurt as a child Tied down, no one hears me Mommy why, your own child I didn't touch you there mommy said she didn't care I didn't touch you there That's why Mommy stopped and STARED Little child, looking so sweet Rape in mind, and now your flesh I'll eat you raped I feel dirty it hurt I'm not a liar my god saw you watching daddy why your own child I scream no one hears me it hurt I'm not a liar my god saw you watching mommy why your own child I fuckin' hate you, motherfucker, I fuckin' hate you Fuck you, you son of a bitch, you ruined my life Look at this, I HATE YOU I fuckin' hate you I hate you