Cold & Ugly

Underneath her skin and jewelry
Hidden in her words and eyes
Is a wall that's cold and ugly
And she's scared as hell
Trembling at the thought of feeling
Wide awake and keeping distance
Nothing seems to penetrate her
She's scared as hell

I am frightened to

Wide awake
And keeping distance from my soul
I am scared like you


Hush

I can't say what I want to
Even if I'm not serious
Things like:
"Fuck yourself
Kill yourself
You piece of shit"

People tell me what to say
What to think
And what to play

I say:
"Go fuck yourself
You piece of shit
Why don't you go kill yourself?"

Just kidding

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Part Of Me

I know you well
You are a part of me
I know you better than I know myself
I know you best
Better than anyone
I know you better than I know myself

You don't judge
You can't speak
You can't leave
You can't hurt me
You're just here for me to use

I know you best
Better than one might think
I know you better than I know myself
It's time for you
To make a sacrifice
It's time to die a little
Give it up

You are a part of me

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Crawl Away

You crawled away from me
Slipped away from me
I tried to keep ahold
But there was nothing I could say
You slid and crept away
And there was nothing I could say
So what you're trying to say
Is you don't wanna play
But what you want and what you need
Doesn't mean fuck to me

Because I can see your back is turning
If I could I'd stick the knife in

This is love
This is my love for you

Get up
Now
Say you won't go

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Sober

There's a shadow just behind me
Shrouding every breath I take
Making every promise empty
Pointing every finger at me
Waiting like a stalking butler
Who upon the finger rests
Murder now the path called "must we"
Just before the son has come
Jesus, won't you fucking whistle
Something but the past and done?

Why can't we not be sober?
I just want to start this over
Why can't we drink forever
I just want to start things over

I am just a worthless liar
I am just an imbecile
I will only complicate you
Trust in me and fall as well
I will find a center in you
I will chew it up and leave
I will work to elevate you
Just enough to bring you down

Trust me
Mother Mary, won't you whisper
Something but what's past and done
Trust me
I want what I want

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Jerk-Off

Someone told me once
That there's a right and wrong
And that punishment
Would come to those
Who dare to cross the line

But it must not be true
For jerk-offs like you
Maybe it takes longer to catch a total asshole
But I'm tired of waiting
Maybe it's just bullshit and I should play God
And shoot you myself
Because I'm tired of waiting

Consequences dictate
Our course of action
And it doesn't matter what's right
It's only wrong if you get caught
If consequences dictate
My course of action
I should play God
And shoot you myself
I'm very tired of waiting

I should
Kick you
Beat you
Fuck you
And then shoot you in your fucking head

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